This week sees a great change in my family and my role as a parent. My son leaves for uni and will be living on Campus at UNSW following his dream of studying Aviation.
My heart is confused. It's breaking to see him leave while at the same time bursting with pride. Why is being a parent so difficult and confusing? Watching your child venture out into the world on their own is probably one of the most difficult things to do and I'm not ready… he is, but I'm not.
Yes, I knew this day was coming,I wrote about it here and here, but that doesn't make it any easier.
So I've helped him pack and given him some much needed cooking tips while lecturing him about being responsible! But at the end of the day I won't be there to watch over him like I have for the last 18 years. I won't really know what he is up to, who his new friends are or what he'll be eating at night. He'll have to be responsible for his own safety, I won't know what time he gets home or who he's with.
I'll be relegated to the sidelines of his life. Yes, I'll be cheering him on, but I won't be the main part of his game.
Where has the time gone? The days really are long but the years fly past.
When my son was little I used to read him this story.
I'll be relegated to the sidelines of his life. Yes, I'll be cheering him on, but I won't be the main part of his game.
Where has the time gone? The days really are long but the years fly past.
When my son was little I used to read him this story.
xToni
I dread that day when my children are no longer my "children" I simply can't imagine my life any other way I so understand it's so hard to let go...but the memories we'll always have and that book is also one of my most treasured stories with my son. Lovely post Have a lovely day xx
ReplyDeleteThank you, the house feels very empty. XT
DeleteI completely understand what youre going thru, my eldest is doing the same thing. She has her first apartment, which is in Leichardt, she lives by herself & will study fashion design. I am so excited for the adventures & experiences she will have, but I terrified for her safety. I did ask if she would text each night so I knew she was safe, I got a big NO MUM!!!!
ReplyDeleteOh Trish it's so hard to let go. Stay strong, lots of hugs to you. XT
DeleteOh Toni my heart breaks for you as I know it is just around the corner for me too. Someone once said "the greatest gift you can give your children is independence". I really do believe this. Be proud of his amazing achievments and that he is following his dream. Wonderful!
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Thanks Barb, my house feels very empty without him. xT
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